Alright, think about this. You'll be sleeping one night, and start to dream. Then a person who you have never given a second thought about will turn up in your dream... and it turns into a very sexual dream with that person. And then you wake up, and you have a totally different outlook on that person. You'll think, "Hey, now that I think about it, he/she is pretty hot." or... "I'd like to spend more time with this person."

I had one of those dreams last night. Actually, I had two different sexual dreams with two different men in the same night, which never happens. The first one was with one of Luke's friends. I can't deny that for a while now, I find this friend to be attractive and... I guess, intriguing would be the word. I think he is very cool but at the same time he can seem like a total loser. It would be interesting for one day to get inside his head and figure out what he is all about. I don't think even his closest friends understand how he feels about some things.

But anyhow, my dream. In my dream, we were very close friends, and there was a fondness and comfort to that friendship. Then it turned sexual, and he touched me and kissed me and it was very fierce and passionate. When I awoke, I still had a shadow of those feelings. They were there... but of course, nothing will become of them. There is one in a billion chance something like that would happen, for a number of different reasons. But I suppose that is what dreams are for. Like any good dream, they stay in your head for a while.

The second sexual dream I had was with the character Q from Star Trek: TNG. Which is just silly, and strange, I know... but when were dreams ever supposed to be sensible? The funny thing is I absolutely hate Q, and I have never found the actor who plays him to be attractive. But in the dream I sure did, and when I woke up I still did too. That's pretty much faded away now though.

It's funny how we dream the things we dream. Most of my sexual dreams involve Luke, but from time to time they don't. I once had a sexual dream with my best friend, and another with my sister. Those I didn't exactly enjoy, but when I have one with someone I'm attracted to, the feelings and experiences seem real. It feels exciting and wicked at the same time, and you can't help but enjoy it. The feelings are very similar when you have sex with a new partner for the first time. Hormones and nerves are flying everywhere. Everyone knows it, once you are with someone for a long time, you grow accustomed to each other. When Luke and I make love, the passion and the closeness is there, but the nerves and butterflies and... the sense of discovery is gone. That's what I feel in my dreams with new partners, and that's what makes it exciting. Not that it's not exciting when Luke and I make love... just a different type of exciting.

Well I'm probably not making any sense, so I'll stop this entry and leave it on that note.