I'm back. It's been 2 years since my last entry here. A lot has changed. I'm out of high school, out of my parent's house, and hell, I'm even married now.

I started writing in this diary when I was a couple months shy from turning 17. This is my first entry. My first entry included a link to an anime porn website. Heh.

I didn't include any of my older entries in the archive page. I may someday, I don't know. They are not hard to find, just slightly hidden. All you have to do is go to the older1.html, older2, older3, etc etc pages to read them.

So - why I'm I back after 2 years? Well, I don't really know. I was bored tonight, that's for sure, and I got to reading this one girl's blog that I really like. I'll even post the link - katneko. I don't read many people's diaries these days. I used to hit about 30 every day, but that dwindled down to only 3, ever since I left diaryland.

I should have never left diaryland. On my birthday two years ago, Luke (then my boyfriend, now my husband) gave me a domain name for my birthday present. It was something that I wanted - a little bit of space for my own corner on the web. We set up a nice layout and added a gallery and everything.

But when I started updating the journal part of it... it just wasn't the same. I felt much more exposed. See, I had given my website addy to several of my friends. Before, none of my friends knew about this little diary I had over at dland. That's because I got pretty personal in this diary. Actually, make that very personal. I poured all my feelings into my entries, my hopes, fears, frusterations, dreams... everything. Not to mention, I delved pretty deeply into my sex life. There I go, using 'pretty' again - make that VERY.

I loved talking about sex. And I didn't know it at the time, but I actually started this diary at the perfect time. Not even a month into writing here, I met the guy that I lost my virginity to. And that opened a whole new chapter in my life. I just went nuts. Dated guys, had flings, had sex, got hurt... learned and experimented. And I wrote it all in here.

People liked it too. I gathered quite a following. About 60 people had me listed as a favorite diary. 30 people still have me listed but I doubt any of them update their diaries anymore.

That was when this diary was at it's peak, but it eventually dwindled down. When I met Luke, my husband, and we became really serious, I let him read my diary - something I had never let anyone do. And that's when I started becoming more conservative and feeling a bit exposed. I pretty much stopped writing about sexual stuff at that point because I felt a little embarassed, and this diary just sorta lost it's edge. I was no longer being 100% honest and open for the first time and a lot of people started noticing that. But then I got the domain name and it was bye-bye dland.

Anyway, back to katneko. She is a real cool gal. What makes her so cool is that she always has something interesting to write about. I think at one point I used to be like that, and I want to be like that again. In order for that to happen, it's back to being honest and open about everything.

We'll see how it goes. I'm not promising updates everyday, but I'm hoping they will be often. I'm going to try to make this work, because I think it will help me.

I still have my domain... haven't decided if I'm going to post it here, because that would go back to the lines of exposing myself again.

Anyway, I've rambled on for far too long. I guess I never directly answered why I'm really back. Well, it's because I've poured so much into this diary already, that it seems like a waste to let it go. I want to continue on. And that's what I'm planning to do.